Thursday, January 12, 2012

While I'm Waiting...again

John Waller's song While I'm Waiting is another that has continued to resonate with me time after time.  Perhaps this is because the last few years have felt like one waiting period after another.  I was reflecting on this the other day and realized that this is probably true for a lot of people: we're always waiting for something.  This is not always a bad thing, but I think this song has most often spoken to me when the something seems impossible.  And that would be the case right now, in more than one situation.  God has laid something on our hearts that is Big and Dramatic and Scary!  And tied into it are so many pieces that are completely out of our control.  In fact, most of it is completely out of our control.  Now being somewhat of a perfectionist and control freak (ok, maybe not somewhat, but I really am learning to let go of things!), I strongly dislike loose ends.  When we decide to go on a trip somewhere, even months in advance, I can't stand to not have everything booked as soon as possible.  It drives me nuts when decisions take weeks or months to nail down.  But now, ahhhh, God is asking me to HANG for quite a while without knowing WHAT is going to happen and WHEN!  Can we say this is an opportunity to keep my hands off and PRAY?  I don't when I have ever felt so challenged to earnestly pray for God's direction and wisdom.

Now, granted, there are some things that we can do while we're waiting, and so we shall endeavor to be good stewards of this "waiting time" that He has given us so that when He says "It's time" we're ready to roll.

Honestly, the desire that He has put on my heart seems impossible.  With that in mind, I was so thankful when my Bible Study this week highlighted how God's ability to make the impossible happen isn't reliant on our ability to believe that He can do it.  He's not inhibited by lack our of faith.  Thank goodness.  Or should I say, Thank You, God.

I have seen over and over in my life that when God places a desire on my heart, He makes it come to fruition in His perfect timing.  And I trust that He will do the same in this situation, even as I sit here wondering (from a human standpoint) how that's possible.  But here's what I know from a spiritual standpoint:

-He will provide (Gen 22:14)
-He will fight for us (Ex 14:14)
-He will give us wisdom when we ask (James 1:5)
-He will work everything for the good of those who love Him (Rom 8:28)
-Nothing is impossible for Him! (Luke 1:37)

And so we move to a period of waiting...again.  And as the song says, we will serve and worship and be still as we wait for the Lord.


Unknown said...

Angela, your faith amazes me. Everytime I read one of your blogs I cry. Will be lifting you and yours in prayer.

Angela said...

Rachel wrote: "Big and Dramatic and Scary! Oh my! :) sounds like it could also be AWESOME"

Monica Gill said...

Angela, you capture how the struggle with waiting is such a real part of our human condition!

One thing we forget...


We are not paralyzed in doing nothing when we wait... we are doing something productive in our spiritual life!